Realm of Reema: Creativity Matters!

The Flag of France

2007-08-22T15:05:00.000Z

I painted on my nails today

Unconcious, unaware

The strokes of red and white and blue
Of which I now shall share

The story of these shiny lines

Few testers from the store

Did mark my nail, yet stirred my mind

With questions, thoughts and more

And so I thought, how come these lines

Of red and white and blue

Connected side by side, became

The flag of France, so true

How come the warmth of red could stand

The freezing cold of blue?

How come the simple stroke of white

Could build bonds between the two?

I asked myself beyond my thoughts;

If red and blue could bind;

Then there should be a chance for peace,

The freedom of mankind.

But would we ever learn from red;

The blood that's spilled in wars?

Or maybe from the rose of love;

What every girl adores.

I tried to answer once again,

The questions of my mind

A circle made, a circle gone,

No answers did I find

And then I knew, I felt it too

Deep within my heart

A place for peace, a place for love

Would only, only start

When human kind began to see

That life's not black and white;

Appreciate, life's colourful,

Yet from the one and same sunlight

So take a breath, a moment, two

Exhale it in, not out

Your hand shall reach across the white

From red to blue no doubt

Nirvana of Nature

2007-07-23T06:49:00.000Z

Black Bear roaming freely
The emptiness of sound -

But what remains of melody,

The birds lullabies

And big Wolf's call to the Moon;

Sprinkles its light -

A touch of magic

To the forest land beneath

No human should enter its caress
Without reaching the
Nirvana of Nature

Musical Memories: I've been Tagged

2007-06-23T17:04:00.000Z

Loz started this meme called 'Musical Memories' which was then passed onto me by Wonder. This meme is about listing between 5 and 10 songs which have made an impact on my life. However, I'll simply twist it a little bit, and list the songs which have left and emotional impact on me somehow. So I thought I'd spice up my blog a little with this meme, thanks to Wonder!

So here we go:

#1 I hope you dance by Lee Ann Womack. It's one of these inspirational songs that always lights this little flame of hope within me when I feel down. A beautiful song.

#2 Who wants to live forever? by Queen. This particular song always leaves me in an emotional wreck. It reminds me of very close and beloved friends of mine, who live in a hopeless atmosphere of war and conflicts. The very title of this song is the exact words one of them once said to me, when speaking of the war situation in their country: 'Who wants to live forever?'. When death becomes less painful than life itself, we should reconsider appreciating life than claiming wars, only to destroy what's left of hope.

#3 Because you loved me by Celine Dion. It remain me of my wonderful mother. 'I'm everything I am' because of her.

#4 I will survive by Gloria Gaynor. Uplifting, inspirational and wise song, that reminds me of a friend who got divorced. A rare, special friend at heart. And she will survive. Yes, she will survive.

#5 Remember Me by Josh Groban. Beyond my words..

OK. I'm not going to tag specific people for this meme, but rather everyone who reads this post and who is interested and wants to join. This way anyone interested can join, so feel free to let me know if you're writing a post with this meme (in the comment section) so my readers and I get to read your version ;)

Happy writing!

Terrorist Defined

2007-06-15T15:27:00.000Z

Terror as medicine

To cure terror as disease

Crime against crime

Tooth by tooth

Eye by eye

Break a leg, rip the skin

Drill holes in the heads

Easy! Shoot all dead!

Delighted by pain -

But not yours, only others;

Because

YOU'RE a terrorist

Mother has a fever

2007-06-11T14:03:00.000Z

~ Mother has a fever ~

Mother has a fever

Her temperature's rising

Radiant warmth spreads across her body

Glaciers keep on melting;

Big Bear flees his home

Rivers evaporate

The sky keeps on crying

Floods of emotions, unexplained, silent

But, oh so clear!

Signs from heaven,

Storm after storm

To human; a tropical pleasure

Tanned bodies, eternal summer

So ignorant, yes, so ignorant

Is the child who plays loudly

Yet knowing that

Mother has a fever

With Love

2007-06-07T17:01:00.000Z

Dear readers, I'd like to dedicate this poem to all of you.
Happy reading :)

~ With Love ~

Love's not a rose or a diamond dear
Love's not a necklace or a teddy bear
Love's not an item to purchase and sell
Love's not a word you could simply yell
Love's not the landscape of romantic red
Love's not the tears you fakely shed
Love's not the arrow across the heart
Love's not some numbers on a fortune chart
Love's not a princess and her missing shoe
Love's not a letter with 'I love you'
Love is a treasure, a way of life
Love's all the years you shared with your wife
Love is a river, emotions that flow
Love's all the moments in life as we go
Love is a song, shared only between two
Love's all the memories, old and new
Love is the hug, the kiss on the cheek
Love's what relaxes, what makes you go weak
Love's a condition to treasure and hold
Love's all the things that I have just told

With love,

Reema

Photos: My Mum's Garden

2007-06-03T14:51:00.000Z

So I finally got to take a shortwalk round my mum's garden, took the camera with me and captured these pictures. I really liked the first one, the close-up of the flower. So summer time!

Above Photo: OK. I've no idea what this is, it really looked like a flower, with no petals. Anybody knows what plant this is?

Above Photo: Early grapes, or baby grapes as I call them. Just had to capture a grape moment here ;)

Above Photo: And of course, followed with a grape-leaf moment too.

It's okay

2007-05-31T23:55:00.000Z

I used to be so sugar sweet
For such a long, long time indeed
Always smiling, always happy
Kindness flourished, nothing crappy
And suddenly I don't know how
A voice inside that told me - Now,
Look around and do you see
How dark all things have come to be?
No, please listen, I'm not bad,
I'm not mental, I'm not mad!
Please look at me, beyond my eyes
A shattered soul never lies
Beyond my smile, beyond it all
Pain, sadness, anger have their call
The bloody battle deep within
Makes living life a crucial sin
Bullet words escape my lips
A word that hurts, a word that slips
I hate the way how badness bends
I hate the way I hurt my friends
But the troubled pain that hides inside
Has carried me and the world apart
Silver sun is faded, gone
No love, no goodness, nothing, none!
I'm quiet, yes, but look I scream!
My eyes are wide; this dreadful dream -
A happy face can also cry
Though smiles are flashing, eyes are dry
The secret pain that's born and bred
Has torn my soul, I'm almost dead
I want to tell, just spit it out,
Just tell the world, just scream, just shout!
But no matter how hard I think,
No words would tell, and so I sink
Deeper, deeper down this well
So lost and helpless; living hell
And so I know the only cure,
The remedy that'd work for sure
A smile, a moment, a tiny shrug
Two people closer, and a hug
The timeless whisper in my ear
The simple words I've longed to hear
Life is hard, yet you would say:
The soothing words of "it's okay"

It's okay.

Dear Readers!! Time for hibernation.. and a BLOG REVIEW! ;)

2007-05-26T20:52:00.000Z

Hi everyone, hope you're all doing great. Alright, as my exams are coming up pretty soon, I would like to inform you that I will be hibernating for about two weeks time until the last exams are over. These are the finals guys, so please please please wish me good luck. All prayers needed! :)

Meanwhile I'd appreciate if any of you could review my blog. I think I have come to the stage where the blog seems to have "settled", so I'd like to invite all my readers, including you, to check out this blog, see what you like, what you don't, what you want to see more of, you name it. Just pour out anything on your heart. Don't just say "your blog is nice/bad". WHAT is nice, WHAT is bad? Be specific ;)

TWO THUMBS UP and a BIG thank you to all my readers. I totally appreciate every single one of you. Wish me good luck!

See you all soon!!

Love, an illusion

2007-05-25T13:40:00.000Z

The end of Spring, Summer's just around the corner. Love's in the air, some may get engaged this summer, others married. Bonded by love, the greatest emotion.. at last, but not least, a poem.

Love, an illusion
A figment of mind
The dream of all dreams
Yet so hard to find
Show me a miracle
Come take my hand
Bring me your landscape
Your vey own land
Harder and harder
As time passes by
Give me your heart, please
Don't make me cry
The sweetest illusion
As real as can be
Today and forever
Come stay with me!

Copyright © Realm of Reema

Mother, I miss you!

2007-05-24T19:49:00.000Z

A dedication to all mothers and those who have lost a dear mother.

Abundant in beauty, where mothers will rise
Beyond expectations, so perfectly nice
Where angels will sing and rivers will flow
With the sweetest of honey; where roses will grow
Each with its beauty, a gracious delight
Reflecting His love, the brightest of light
Only for mothers, the ones we adore
A labour of pain, yet purest of pure
In caress and compassion, the strength of love
A blessing indeed, from far above
My mother, your mother, the mothers of all
Pure in intentions, shall receive their call
Souls rise to Heaven, not dead, not gone
They'll meet with their Lord, the Merciful One
Children will whisper - I miss you so!
Mum, I feel lonely; I won't cry oh, no!
My heart weeps for you, yet my eyes are dry
For I know one day, I too will fly
To the fields of green; I'll look and I'll see
My mother so happy, smiling down at me
Reunited by love, all angels shall sing
Welcome to Heaven, of God, the King!

I Love My Nailpolish - A Dedication to My Sweetest Sisters

2007-05-23T00:57:00.000Z

Usually, I happen to find myself rush through life with it's ups and downs, so busy that I don't offer the time I should to my sisters. It almost feel like yesterday, when they were born; the first word they said, the first step they took, the ways we played.. everthing flashes through my memory. But I also, in between the stress of life, steal few glances and notice, how my baby sisters have become, fine, little ladies.

So I'd like to dedicate this poem to them and in fact, all the big sisters out there who happen to have adorable, little sisters.

And in the event of you feeling like commenting, then please do.

I don't bite ;)

~ I Love My Nailpolish ~

I love my nailpolish, to colour my world
Clear, pink, indigo - but best of all
The deepest of red; it so suits my skin,
The dress that I wear, and the rouge on my chin
A rainbow of colours I stroke on my nail
Blow it to dry, I leave no trail
Of spillage, of mess - paint gone wild;
An adult perfection, yet still such a child
I look at my sister, when she's not aware
I copy her moves, and flick back my hair
Indeed, she's a model, but hush, don't tell!
A secret between us, now, keep it well!
One day when I'm older, I too will be
Just like my sister; smart, nice and pretty
For now, I'm just little - a long road to go
So much to try out, so much to know
And above all the colours, between now and then
I'll write you a poem, with my pink, feather pen:
Today I'm a child, yes, so right and so true
But tomorrow, dear sister, I'll be.. I'll be you!

Children & War: I Will Always Worry

2007-05-21T15:24:00.000Z

When they say - Don't worry!
You should not be sorry!
They don't know, they don't know
I have sinned

Smile and dance, be gracious!
Life is short, yet spacious
Chances come each second,
And we really reckon
You should smile, you should dance
Once again

So they say - Don't worry!
You should not be sorry!
They don't know, they don't know
I have sinned

Children cry, their sorrow
Will go on tomorrow
Yet here I stand so passive
When I really should be active
Reaching out, reaching out
With my love

Still they say - Don't worry!
You should not be sorry!
They don't know, they don't know
I have sinned

What kind of person am I
When I let this child cry?
Parents dead; heartbroken
Indeed his eyes have spoken
Of the horror, the terror
Of war

And when they say - Don't worry!
You should not be sorry!
I will smile in sadness;
Say I'll always worry,
Always be so sorry
When you don't, when you don't
Value life!

A Pearl of Life: A Dedication to the Broken Family

2007-05-20T12:29:00.000Z

A pearl of life in my hand
From here of which I stand
I see it all, and all is true
A childs face, so sad, so blue.

Heartbreak comes, heartbreak goes
Mother cries, but only shows
A quarter of what burns inside
Of sadness, anger; an emotional tide.

Do you know, no, do you care
Of all the years of abuse they'd share?
In this closed group, called Anonymous Mothers
Who brutally got abused by their lovers.

And from here, of which I stand
I hold a pearl, a child, hand in hand
I see it all, and all is true;
Two broken eyes, so sad, so blue.

Please HELP! Have you seen Madeleine McCann?

2007-05-18T14:58:00.000Z

It totally breaks my heart to know that Madeleine is not found yet. Over two weeks has passed since she was abducted. My prayers and thoughts go to Madeleine's family and relatives; I truly pray she will be sound and safe and return home as soon as possible.

How could any one be so heartless?

http://www.findmadeleine.com

I Got Tagged!! - 7 weird things about me

2007-05-17T02:16:00.000Z

I am honoured and glad to tell that I have been tagged by DesigningFairy to share 7 weird things about me, and then tag up to 7 other bloggers. It sounds fun, so here we go:

#1: I'm obsessed with poetry. Sometimes I feel it's easier to express my emotions using poetry than other forms of creative writing, and at times, even speech!

#2: I can be totally nocturnal at times (but not always - I have crazy sleeping pattern), living life at night time. It gives me the pleasure of the combination of total silence and deep concentration.. it just feels, ah, perfect!

#3: I have this passion and love for animals. I understand them (although at times, agressive animals scare the breath out of me!). People come to me and say, "oh that's just a dog, he's dumb, just ignore him" and I look into that dogs eyes, see it smile, and almost feel him saying "that human is retarted, just ignore him!". And btw, while we're at it, I've always wished for a white arabian since childhood. One day hopefully, I'll get one. One day..

#4: At times, I usually get obsessed with photography, and take hundred of shots in one day. Few would turn out nice and neat, however sometimes, the blurry effect makes me frustrated.. Sharpness, sharpness, sharpness! I need sharpness and a new SLR camera! :(

#5: Colour makes my heart sing! I totally cannot live without colour. So when people ask "what's your favourite colour?", I say "blue", sometimes "green", sometimes "pink", sometimes "red".. I love them all, so what should I say? The rainbow?

#6: I'm obsessed with my pc, internet and blog. I must be crazy, as I check my blogs at least twice a day for comments and feedback, only to see only few and sometimes none has commented. It kinda breaks me.
So I sit hours and hours trying to edit and improve the blog. Like DesigningFairy, I only end up with a banging headache and at times, frustration.

#7: I didn't get to see the sea in my whole life, until last year when I went to a trip to Blackpool. I know it's weird, it's like: EVERYBODY has seen the sea.. but no, I never saw it until last year. And I thought: wow! Truly beautiful. I've put some pictures on this blog, if you want to check them out. I love the sea! The feeling of freedom :)

OK. I'd like to tag: Steven Alexander, Wonder Woman, Evolution83.

Alright then, have a nice day everyone!

Poetry: I feel oh so lonely

2007-05-17T01:53:00.000Z

I feel oh so lonely

Like a rose with no petals
A sky with no stars
A world with no people

Emptiness only
In this room

No guidance, no light
All colours drained
Like reality fading

This place
This life

No thoughts, no words
Only a silent lullaby

And I feel

Oh, so lonely

Past Art Work

2007-05-07T23:14:00.000Z

These are some of my experimental, pastel art work produced few years ago. Thought I'd share it with all of you guys. Please do remember, all COMMENTS and FEEDBACKS are appreciated! So have a look, enjoy and tell me what YOU think :)

Peace!

Mermaid

Silenced Mask

Autumn: A Portrait

Purple Sunset

Butterfly

It's Called Love

Weeping Willow

Light of Hope

Green Apple

Want to comment? I'd love to hear from you :)

Copyright © Realm of Reema

Poetry: Be gentle, Love

2007-05-07T20:15:00.000Z

Be gentle, Love
I'm delicate
No sorrow can I carry
No scars can I heal
I'm delicate, Love
Be gentle

Freelance Trip: Iraq

2007-05-06T22:59:00.000Z

Click on the individual photos to enlarge.

The Road to Iraq. Southern Turkey.

Sign of hope? Last winter orange on the tree.

Climb, climb.. and you may reach your liberty.. at its end.

An Iraqi home.. So perfectly peaceful.
Now who would know about the bloody war that's going on behind these walls?

A bottle of gas. People offer their lifetime for this,
queueing from sunrise to sunset (literally).
So, this "liberation" included the Iraqi oil resources too, huh?

The other side of the walls.
A destroyed, trashed, and most importantly, "liberated" country!

Copyright © Realm of Reema

Blackpool Beach

2007-05-06T17:00:00.000Z

Click on photos to enlarge

Mermaid Rome

2007-05-05T23:42:00.000Z

Egyptian girl in Mermaid Rome
Hidden streets of ancient cities
Breath under water -
Danger's gone
Kings and Queens of Mermaid Rome

My neighbour's naughty cat

2007-05-05T16:05:00.000Z

I found my neighbour's cat in the garden today, and so I decided to capture few photos of Fred. Only Fred decided to be a little bit naughty, a little bit cheeky, and totally not sit still (well, she is a cat after all) :) Anyhow, I did capture few photos of her (yes it IS a her), enjoy ;)

Poetry: A Prayer

2007-05-04T20:35:00.000Z

I ask you Lord
Guide me
For I
Surrounded by darkness
See nothing but darkness
And in this blindness
I am filled with sadness
Guide me Lord
From this madness!

Norwegian Poetry: Doeden (The Death)

2007-05-04T11:41:00.000Z

Mens vinden gjør sine piruetter
I skyggen av solens stråle
Løper barnet over havet
Stuper mot en fjern galakse
Lengter bort fra askenetter
Til et sted med stjernedryss
Til de rom med lyse kroker
Ut en port med hvite blomster
Til en bekk med røde tårer
Faller sakte ned mot jorden
Svever inn i kantet kasse
Blomster drysses over fjeset
Blekt og uten tegn til skyld
Ned i dypet synker barnet
Trøttheten får overmakt
Å du lille barn, drøm søtt!
For du vil aldri våkne.

Short Poetry: Collection 5

2007-05-03T18:41:00.000Z

About Heartbreak:

If anyone every broke your heart
I promise I'll come and
Mend it for you
And make it newer that new!

~

About Silence:

Screaming silence!

~

About War:

Wolves in the forest
Men in the room
The storm has begun

~

About Beauty:

Even blind people can see, you know
Maybe not with their eyes
But they surely see with their hearts

~

About Loneliness:

Speaking of loneliness
Like speaking of thirst in an open lake

~

About Islamophobia:

They fear what they cannot understand
Hence the attacks

~

About Forbidden Love:

A pearl in my hand
A thorn in my heart
A sign of despair

~

About Hypocrisy:

Sleep like a fox, man
And I, I'll be the wolf
In disguise

~

About Hypocrisy:

Ironically.
Blamed by a hypocrite
For hypocrisy

~

About Life and Death:

Afterall, we only die once
Live for today
Die for tomorrow

~

About Faith:

Faith is also a treasure, you know

~

About Minorities:

Either I'm an alien in a human world
Or a human in an alien world
Really, what does it matter

~

About [The Israeli] Occupation:

They say let a bird free
From its cage
And it will build a nest of freedom

~

About War:

Lower your weapon, man
For you, you are only human

Broken Soldier: Stop the Iraq war!

2007-05-01T20:45:00.000Z

Broken soldier
Smoke and fire
Crying baby
Burnt to ashes

Brave, broken soldier

Poetry: Footprints

2007-04-30T21:30:00.000Z

Footprints in my heart
Walked over again
And again
In fear of being wiped out
Waiting for the storm to be over
At last - Peaceful breeze
Footprints will remain
Always

Short Poetry: Collection 4

2007-04-30T21:07:00.000Z

About Past Memories:

I drew a circle in the air
And placed all memories in there
Kicked it as hard as I could
And now? You don't EXIST!

~

About Real Miracles:

I asked the fairy for some magic
She pointed to my heart

~

About Beauty:

True beauty lies in a snowflake
And those who are worthy of it

~

About Time:

I tripped over time today
I wish I did not

~

About Life:

Glide through life
Even though life
Seems to be
A humpy road

~

About Gratitude:

Birds greet the day
Learn

~

About Life:

Left in a tunnel
Of killing darkness
I finally understood
The meaning of life

~

About Knowledge:

Alif Ba Ta -
Alphabet

~

About Beauty:

Even butterflies
Used to be worm once

~

About Love:

Blessed by the season
In which fire is burning

~

About Rebellion:

They told me not to do it
That's why I did it!

Copyright © Realm of Reema

Short Poetry: Collection 3

2007-04-30T20:55:00.000Z

About War:

Little ladybird
Black ships sailing the Red Sea -
Blood of innocence

~

About Reality:

Underneath the apple tree
I woke up to reality

~

About Traitors:

There were tears in her eyes
Each a droplet of her lies

~

About War:

No tulip, no rose

Can heal the scar
Made by the cactus

Of war

~

About Liars:

I know a sssecret
The snake whispered -
I ran away

~

About Past Memories:

The goldfish keeps swimming in my head
I wish it to stop so I can forget

~

About Silence:

Sometimes
I speak silence

~

About Silence:

Silver means a little
Gold means even more
But what really has a meaning
Is when there's no words at all

~

About Real Beauty:

Amazed by the beauty
In her eyes -
I moved in closer
And realised
It was all reflected
From the outside
I lost interest...

Copyright © Realm of Reema

Short Poetry: Collection 2 - Love&Pain

2007-04-30T12:37:00.000Z

Photo: Reema

About Love:

Never say "I love you"
I don't care if you do
But show me that you love me
I'll promise I'll love you too

~

About Heartbreak:

Morning after morning
I wake up to the night

~

About Knowledge:

Soft summer whispers
To the leaves of olive trees
Spreading words of wisdom

~

About Confessions:

If
I told you
Would you
Believe?

~

About Love:

Golden rose petals
Dissappear in midnight sky
Leaving stars behind

~

About Heartbreak:

You can break a mountain
But you're too weak
To break my heart

~

About Reality:

Have you seen my silver wings?
I lost them in my dreams

~

About Heartbreak:

Wounds give strength
Said the broken tree
Even though it was dying

Copyright © Realm of Reema

Speaking of Pain

2007-04-30T12:26:00.000Z

No one gets used to pain
It's just a matter of not showing it

Short Poetry: Collection 1

2007-04-30T12:03:00.000Z

About Lost Friends:

It was there
But then gone
Evaporated into the atmosphere
Gone, never to return
Far, far away
Yet still by my side

I stille wonder

~

About Divorce:

Rainbow from Heaven
Alphabet of wisdom
Love within hatred

~

About Heartbreak:

Purple crystal tears

Brighten ice-cold winter
Autumn breeze is gone

~

About God & Faith:

If the universe didn't exist,
What would exist in its place?

~

About Faith:

It's all about
Believing
Hoping
Trying
Failing
Trying
Hoping
Believing

~

About Real Love:

In the eyes of a man
Lies are hidden
In the heart of the wise
Access is forbidden

~

About Real Love:

Come, fill my soul with fire
And rise me to my throne
Then leave me stupid liar
I'm better on my own

~

About Faith:

Trip, Rise, Smile
Fail, Cry, Fail
Smile, Rise, Trip
Who cares?

Try again!

Poetry: Charcoal Chamber

2007-04-29T23:24:00.000Z

Charcoal chamber

Grey symbols

Of ancient messages

Engraved in rough walls

Charcoal chamber

The untold tragedy

Poetry: Love me, love me not?

2007-04-29T20:42:00.000Z

Ruby red, seed by seed
Careful not to burst any
Each one so precious
All emotions focused
Seed by seed
Seed by seed
Love me, love me not

Love me, love me not-

Love's fate in a pomegranate

Poetry: Not In Liberty's Name - A Dedication to Iraq

2007-04-29T13:40:00.000Z

I wrote this poem in dedication to all innocent people who have suffered in the ongoing Iraq War.

Cheapest of all this deadly game
Deceiving minds in Liberty's name
No peace, no freedom, no life at all
A nation oppressed, but I promise I shall
Die if I must for this nation I love
Be brave little child, spread your wings little dove
Upon all what we want, the taste of peace
No blood anymore, no fighting please!
And cheapest of all, this deadly game
No blood must be spilled in Liberty's name.

Copyright © Reema, Realm of Reema

Escape From Reality

2007-04-29T12:55:00.000Z

Before me I watch the sea. Its systematic ripples almost hypnotise me, I'm spellbound. Its beauty appeals.. almost magical. I'm breathless. Me and the sea only, nothing beyond, nothing behind. It draws me closer, closer. My bare skin is almost in contact with the water. I hear distant sounds from behind me. In a far away place children are crying. Men are screaming. Something is up, something really bad. I can sense it. Something is burning. Sirens about to sounds. I should turn. I sould run to help. But the water.. it attracts me. No muscle is moving, and somehow I'm gliding just above the ground's surface. Like a magnet the sea attracts me, little by little.. so slowly, I'm almost there. The screams and cries are getting louder, perhaps closer. But I don't want to know. I don't want to turn. I can't turn, no, not now.. I'm almost there! The water, oh how perfectly cool it now feels against my skin. Rising, rising.. reaching my chest now. An ice-cold relief and some invisible hands turn me to face what once was behind me: A burning city, ruined homes. I see orphans, dead bodies.. I smile, one last time, before the sucking power of death overtakes me. I am free.

I'm Not Every Girl

2007-04-27T14:24:00.000Z

When you look at me, you think you know me. You look at me and I smile. Like a mirror I reflect the rays back to you and you smile back, though you don't know me. You think I'm happy. You look into my eyes, they're so intense! You feel the warmth in them, it makes you feel comfortable, it assures you. You look at me dance, I glide through air! So smoothly, so gracefully, each step a perfection. And when I speak, I whisper. You can barely hear me.. a protection in voice. So you look at me, and you think you know me. Please, look again, try to see me! Behind the smile, there are endless nights of crying. Behind my eyes, there's an empty sadness. The dancing you observe is nothing but the silent scream to the world.. please understand, I'm not every girl.

The Silence Before The Strike

2007-04-27T09:23:00.000Z

Speaking of isolation there's nothing left in this world. Everything is far worse now. Like the terrifying silence before the strike. Everyone's attacking everyone. Everyone's being arrogant. They think they know it all. They think they know everything. I hate them! I hate all of them, down to the last person. Oh, I really, really do! Those who believe they're really something, and those who are dumb enough to believe and worship these arrogant people. And all men who got no respect for women. They think they're so superior when they're really all losers without the female presence. Then they, most of them, think about sex in such a backward way. Most men see females and girls as pure objects. And when they're angry they call us bitches and whores. They beat us, insult us, abuse us. Then they want respect from us, as if they deserve it for free. Can you believe that!? It would surprise me if I met one, normal, loving, caring man. Really, I'd be surprised..

Speaking of Divorce

2007-04-26T21:22:00.000Z

The house is quiet. Nobody's around, except my mom. I feel so isolated. Again, a cageless prisoner. This whole world, this life is a prison. I'm doomed to be here whether I want to or not. A continued pace. Step by step. Breath by breath. This has been the most confusing and most boring time of my life. But nobody cares. Nobody knows. And it doesn't matter if they know or not, what would they change anyway? Yeah, that's right, everything would just remain the same... Like this self-declared war. I hate adults! I don't want to grow up. Not at all, I mean it. The way adults hate each other. The way adults don't use their brains to think. The way adults ruin families, lives! I swear, the more they grow older, the dumber they become. Their hearts harden, their souls evaporate.. You know, the bad thing in life is when two adults, a wife and a husband, don't love eachother anymore. Nothing compares.. Nothing!

When Love Is Forgotten

2007-04-26T20:44:00.000Z

I dunno. Sometime I feel so lonely. Like a lost creature in a faraway, forgotten world. A person, a place nobody remembers no more. An untold fairytale. And I really wish I had something, someone here with me. A hand, a shoulder. Anything. But I guess.. Reality is not as sweet as it seems. Like do you really believe in love? I think I did. Once. But it's so fake... It's always fake! People love no more! Feel no more! Their ignorance, their arrogance - there's no heart within their chests. You've seen how people so coldly divorce their wives? Let their children suffer? Seek the worldly desires of sexual lust rather than pure and honest love. Compassion, caress.. Animals no longer seem like animals. These very men do. They tower above us thinking they are dominant, that we have to obey them no matter what. What's up with the world today? What's up with everyone? We hurry through life in love with this world. And so our hearts turn to stone and steel and we slowly, but surely, forget the sweet taste of love. The doom of desire..